Lower Lows, Higher Highs

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"It began long ago, when darkness, through its deceit captured the hearts of the sons and daughters of light. We looked for light but we found only darkness. We searched for bright skies but walked in gloom. We fumbled like the blind along the wall, feeling our way like people without eyes. We were destined to fall, even in the brightest days. We stumbled as if it were dark. Among the living, we were like the dead. We looked for justice, but it never came. We looked for rescue but it was far from us. So He, Himself, stepped in to save us with his strong arm and justice to sustain Him. He put on righteousness as armor, salvation His helmet. He clothed Himself with the robe of vengeance and wrapped Himself in a cloak of divine passion. He slipped out of his royal garments, left eternity to enter time, divinity to wrap himself in humanity. The sea of glass, for the ocean of separation. He left peace, and for the first time felt pain. Because the very hands that held the stars were now sentenced to wear my scars. It was love that purchased this traitor’s heart. It’s what the prophets spoke about when they envisioned light living in men once again. For this reason, I AM LEGEND, predestined for greatness, built for the final hour. I was born for this with weapons in hand, armor in place. I now march to the beat of a different drum. I will break through battle lines that have been drawn by discouragement and despair. What more is left to be said? Time has met its end. It’s now or never. Collision with me, myself, and I. You see my mission today is clear: to wake the dead. So let freedom’s song rage. You’re not abandoned. You’re not alone. Last day warriors arise from yesterday’s ash and raise your fist with us. We are the army that is charging upon the land. Defeat is no longer an option! IT IS VICTORY."

Worth Dying For

Posted March 24, 2012 at 1:13 pm 3 notes

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"Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves receive from God. For just as we share abundantly in the sufferings of Christ, so also our comfort abounds through Christ. If we are distressed, it is for your comfort and salvation; if we are comforted, it is for your comfort, which produces in you patient endurance of the same sufferings we suffer. And our hope for you is firm, because we know that just as you share in our sufferings, so also you share in our comfort."

2 Corinthians 1:3-7 NIV

Posted March 6, 2012 at 8:34 pm

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I’ve learned not to talk through movies
When I still don’t know the lines
I’ve learned who not to ask advice from
When I can’t make up my mind
When times get tough I’ve learned
That breathing is the best thing I can do
And I’ve learned letting go of friends
Is something I won’t get used to
I’ve learned a fair amount about the world
Of women and of love
I’ve learned that money doesn’t always mean
Deserving one or both of the above
I’ve learned it’s hard to be alone when you’re alive
But somehow I have learned that we won’t be alone
When we all reach the other side
Something in my heart is telling me I’ve learned to love
Oh, I’ve become

I know my learning isn’t done
I’ve learned not to lie to people
Who know me better than my words
And I’ve believed I’ve learned to filter out
The voices in my head (But I’m still not sure)
I’ve learned failure’s not an option
It’s frowned upon and rude
And giving up before the bell
Is something I’ve learned not to do
I’ve learned how to keep my head
Above the water line in desperate times
I’ve learned to swim when someone lonely
Ties an anchor to my leg in spite
I’ve learned to fight
The difference between wrong and right
How to sleep at night
You know I still don’t have that cartridge
But I’m learning how to live in black and white

But oh, I’m afraid I will never quite understand
The way I wish I could know
Everything I would ever need just in case
I ever lose my way
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Golden | Farewell Fighter

Posted January 8, 2012 at 4:08 pm

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Lightspeed

“Time flies when you’re having fun” whoever coined that phrase can go jump off a cliff, because I’m pretty sure that if that mentality never crept in our heads, that would have never become a reality. Why is it that times which you wish to savor the most are the times that fly the fastest right on by?

I’m going to make a list. A list of what I want to accomplish over this holiday break, so I don’t end up wondering where the times gone by, only to realize that my next glimpse of freedom is Easter. I’m not exacted the most…well…organized person.. haha Sometimes assesing yourself and your goals is necessary, even to the most competent.

You never get back RIGHT NOW. Make the most of it.

Jason…

Posted December 21, 2011 at 11:20 pm 2 notes

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Retrograde Remedy

If I could take a picture of the moon I would,

To see what you saw and what I didn’t.

Beyond the black and white, Makes me wish I could

Have seen through the fog that kept me from you. I shouldn’t

Have neglected what we had.

Posted November 12, 2011 at 6:00 pm 2 notes

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A goodnight kiss
From goodnight you,
The kind of hope they all talk about.
The kind of feeling we sing about.
Sit in our bedroom and read aloud,
Like a passage from goodnight moon…

Posted November 2, 2011 at 9:22 pm 2 notes

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Nights like these…

It’s nights like these that once I get enveloped in my own thought, free of distractions, do I feel like I’m actually able to make some progress on my outlook per say, on things. It’s those nights where you think, well I wish I could have thought like this at the time, or look at all these pastimes I wish I could relive, just to even change something so simple as one decision.

I believe we spend way too much time mainstream, focused on the next goal at hand, or anxiously awaiting what the future may hold. Even when we focus on the here and now, we tend to miss the big picture. I’m not saying we shouldn’t have goals and prepare for the future, but the only way we’re going to get to the future is the present.

I remember the first day I walked into high school vividly, and now im off to my senior year. The fact is that every moment defines who you are. Time goes by too quickly to take anything for granite. It would only make sense to make the best out of every moment. Right? But how would you try to have enough commitment to even do such a thing like that?

That’s for you personally to figure out.

Jason…

Posted August 27, 2011 at 11:04 am 2 notes

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“Friendship isn’t a big thing - it’s a million little things.” ~Author Unknown

Middle of the summer… A little bored… So here are some of my thoughts lately.

How do you know if someone is a true genuine friend, and how do you make sure that’s the case? Boy, if I only knew the answer to that… Its like as of late, I’ve noticed a trend in some people. It’s an approach where they try to be nice to everyone, as they should, but either intended or not, ended up letting someone down with a false sense of a “true” (I’ll explain my definition of this later) friendship. There are so many friendships out there that are “Hey! how you doing? I miss you, we need to hang out sometime?” sound familiar? I don’t mean to be rash against the people that mean it. But it seems in this era when everyone is connected and a push of a button or touch of a screen away, it’s so easy to be “friends”. Facebook, probably a major proponent of this haha. Heres a kind of silly, but i think relevant analogy. Building a relationship is like growing a plant. You start all these relationships, but if you don’t take them seriously and cultivate and nourish them all, a few have a good chance of dying out. When you move on from a person or loose contact with them, and there hasnt been any roots to hold it together, it’s probably not going to last. Whether thats fine with you, is up to you. But what I want, besides the friendships, are the relationships in those friendships that I can trust at any time, know that they will last, and will be there for me when I need it. How to determine who those people are? I guess that’s something that I’m going to have to continue to learn.

If you have any comments or questions, I’m all ears.

Just my thoughts,

Jason…

Posted July 18, 2011 at 6:13 pm

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Reblogged from myheartsexploding-deactivated20

Posted July 1, 2011 at 7:48 pm 5 notes

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Here I am…11:32 5-28-11

In bed, half an hour before my days of youth are over with. Expectations and responsibilities of an adolescent almost behind me. Dramatic much? Maybe. I don’t know exactly what to do to enjoy these last moments, if they’re even worth reminiscing haha but I look back on all that has happened throughout my life. It’s countless, the memories and experiences that I’ve had. I am truly grateful to God through the good and the bad. He’s been with me all the way. I’ll never take that for granite. Can you look back at your childhood and say “well that was worth it.” I think that as we grow up, we are always looking on to what’s next in life. Just take a minute to think about your life. The times you’ve laughed, the times you’ve cried, the things you’ve learned, the mistakes you’ve made. It really helps with your perspective. One day you’re going to do the same thing at the end of your life. “did I live a good life?” I want to be able to look back and know that I treated every moment with the appreciation that it deserves. Every second is a gift. So as I move on to the next “stage” of my life in essence, I want to thank everyone that’s has made my life so far what it is; the people that have made such an impact on me. Im truly grateful so such for the amazing friends and family that I have.

Love you all! Mr. Jason Bock

Posted May 29, 2011 at 12:17 am 2 notes

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Lower Lows

“I may be weak,

But Your spirit’s strong in me

My flesh may fail,

But my God you never will.”

means so much more to me now after a day like today

Jason…

Posted May 19, 2011 at 7:53 pm 1 notes

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i wish this could be my life’s background music…

Posted May 14, 2011 at 10:26 pm

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The Things That Set You Back

It seems to me as that day in and day out, perspective changes about a lot of things. There is constant debate that goes on in oneself about the countless aspects of life, whether it be school, friends, girls, decisions, things you should and shouldn’t do, the list goes on and on. What I find weird is the fact that though we learn from these decisions and observations that we make, we find ourselves right back where we started a majority of the time. So how do you change that? I’m not exactly sure, but I do know that I’m in the exact same boat as almost everyone else. So making the best out of every opportunity seems to me as to be the best choice. It’s ironic because the older I’m getting the more life has become more confusing and more stressful than ever. You WOULD think that everything would get easier with experience. As a kid, we never felt self-conscious, we never felt paranoid, never embarrassed or shy out of the norm. The authenticity we had as kids was genuine and we didn’t hide behind these masks of who we truly were. I think thats the mindset that we need to try to get back to. So what sets you back from your true potential? What have you been trying to fix that you haven’t seemed able to fix? Truth is, whatever those things might be, they’re part of the human experience. They’re challenges, circumstances, obstacles that are presented to us so we CAN overcome then, not be contained by them. So make the best out of every opportunity that you have. For me, I have to keep reminding myself to not over think things, and be myself, yet it’s that thinking that brings you to that conclusion. So I’ll keep on learning as I go, and hopefully understand things better. I wish you guys luck
Jason…

Posted April 3, 2011 at 8:21 pm 2 notes

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Dear Mystery,

Why am I haunted by this ominous feeling? Why can’t this confusion ever seem to be answered? Why is it that the longer it’s been, the harder it’s been getting? Why is there this road that can’t seem to be taken? Why is nothing said? What happened in the first place? Will we ever talk again? What am I supposed to say? What approach is there? Why have I been chained by this certain feeling if I were to say something to you? Is there even any hope? These are the questions that plague me…

Jason…

Posted April 3, 2011 at 4:41 pm 1 notes

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